What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

So, i spoilt her more .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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I waited trembling.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Why do flat Earthers exist? Why can’t I see the Sun at night? Is it because Earth is not flat?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My wife found I had been on Pornhub. She considers this adultery and wants a divorce. She hasn't touched me in over 6 years. What should I do?

And i lived it daily.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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But, we were locked up after school.

I was seconnd youngest,

I was 9 years of age.

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Comes on , in middle age.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

How do I develop the patience to read books?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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All the time i was locked up.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Why did i forgive my father ?

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Who then, do I blame.?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I will be 64.

I said to her

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

This is soul school!.

He knew the spot.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

(And it was in our own minds.)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He resisted the act ,that day.

My life is so biszare .

When she asked me how she looked .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Was to survive, this bastard.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I never cut or harmed myself..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I think the readers, may guess!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was very sick at this time too.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She found it foreign!.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But it wasn’t much.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I write beautiful poetry .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im still living with it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One cannot live in the past .

Ive learnt so much.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

So whats the point in blame.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She married twice! .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was scared of men, in general

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I don,t even have a pension.

We all went to grammer schools

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She loved him until the end.

Put me off passion for life!!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She was in good health!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Would this be the day?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She wouldn,t have been !

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I have no regrets .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

It was going to be , some day.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

What did i know ?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We were not on the streets..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I had hoped to write a book about this .